MERRY XMAS!

Wahey.

I will post elaborately soon.

I'm at work tomorrow WHAT EVEN

Goodnight x

formspring.me

do you believe in god? if yes what makes you believe?and does being gay affect peoples perception of you?

I'm unsure about God. I was christened Roman Catholic and whilst that's what my mam, and first school, has brought me up to believe, these days I don't, not really. I believe there's some sort of higher being, but even then that raises a million more questions to me. I guess I'm just really unsure about religion in general. And this links to me being gay - it's that age old argument. The bible says you should love everyone and everyone deserves love and respect and equal opportunities.. then totally contradicts itself. That made me think too. (Sorry if I'm offending anyone here, just saying my piece).

And yes, I think with certain people being gay affects their perception of me. Name a lesbian stereotype, I've had it hurled in my face. Some people were shocked by my music taste - "you listen to Kylie Minogue?! But- but.. that's really girly." It's just like, what, are you being serious? I guess there's always going to be ignorance out there, but the majority of people I associate with see me for me, not a walking caricature of homosexuality, and what they EXPECT of me because I'm not straight.

Ask Me Anything!

formspring.me

I'm in the mood for a good debate. Not an argument.. just some substance. Bring up an issue with me, discuss. http://formspring.me/Tash

Oh, btw.

MTV Shows

I'm absolutely in love with them, didn't you know?

:D This video is different and lovely and Hayley is adorable and omg.

formspring.me

How did I get here I'm not good with computers

Lmao, I'm not sure! Hello there anyway. :D

Ask Me Anything!

I HATE THIS FEATURE. IT JUST POSTS IT INSTANTLY, YOU DON'T GET TO ADD ANY THOUGHTS OR WITTY COMMENTS.

HOW SHIT IS THAT.

Does This Ever Stop?!

Hmm.

What Is My Life

Don't even ask. ;D

For reference, Jake = alittlefurtheraway and Charli = ridingphonelines
:)

Enter Shikari Rant Post

Okay so I don't even know if I mentioned this here, but Carl went and got us both tickets for the gig when they went on sale in like, July or something, and the gig itself was on tuesday. I was looking forward to it quite a bit (come on, it's Shikari!) and even though I felt like shit at sixth form that day, I hurried home, changed my clothes and jumped on the metro to queue asap.

It was pissing down. When we got there Caitlin and the other few that had been there since about four had been let in for the soundcheck. I was wearing a t-shirt and my grey hoody and Carl was in a white t-shirt. Cold. The guy infront of us was a bit of a twat, which didn't help our morale.. big stupid vans hat cap on, really skinny ripped jeans and all black vans on his feet, one of those twats that brees and dances like they've shit themselves. He kept threatening violence on anyone and everyone: the kids that were spraypainting their hair blue and putting neon paint on their noses just behind us (who admittedly looked ridiculous, but come on), some charvs that were eyeing the queue nervously, some emo guy that looked at him wrongly.. you get the picture. "If I find him inside I'll literally kill him." Lovely!

It got to about half past five and Carl left, citing being freezing and suicidal from the cold, and that he'd be back later. So I started chatting to Katy who I had bumped into, whilst huddling under her umbrella, and some other kids I'd never met (Amy is one name I remember.. and Rachel?) about all sorts, mostly the cold. I was also texting Caitlin who was back outside, a little further up.

It was at this point that I noticed how hungry I was, so me and Katy climbed over the barrier thingy (thank you to that birthday lass and Amy for keeping our spaces) and ran over to Burger King. Some charv bloke inside spotted Katy, said she was lovely looking, enquired about the "concert fing across the road" and asked her if I was "her lad." ¬_¬ To which we responded "no" (me) and "yes" (her) at the same time. He then went "eh, yes or no?! eeee fuck, are you a lass? Sorry like, it's cause ya hood's up man, bless ya. Propa girly voice like!" I then clicked that Katy was frankly terrified of him, so I said, "Sorry, it's just.. don't like telling many people. We're together, yeah." And he went "arrr, lucky lass you are! You dykes then?" How original. He proceeded to tell Katy he had £400, and that he'd pay them both into Enter Shikari, take her for a meal, to the pictures, and generally spend it all on her. This confused us to fuck ("why was he hitting on me when he thinks we're together?!") but it entertained us.

We went back into the queue, only to be told five minutes later that O2 customers could get into the priority queue with two friends. So I took Katy, and Amy who latched onto me and begged. Much cheering and "eee fuckin hell" ing ensued.

Nothing much else happened apart from singing a few Paramore songs and getting told I'm a "lucky fuckin' bitch!" for getting tickets to see them in Manchester (I know I am). So yeah, the doors opened at seven, we ran in, and got right in the middle on the barrier.

First act: I knew it was Rou under there!

True Tiger, haha. They were class, really got the crowd going! They set a fantastic atmosphere, everyone was bopping along quite contentedly.

This bloke was mint, he kept going absolute crazy on stage, and threw his dress into the crowd at the end of the set ;D

Second act were Devil Wears Prada, who I knew a lot of kids were excited to see. I'm not a fan myself, but they definately knew how to put on a good show and instead of being bored and impatient for Shikari, I really enjoyed it! Plus, the drummer was epic to watch and he was kind of cute. Wanted to just hug him, awww.

Scream into my camera for me yeahh?! Thank youu!

After they went off, you could feel how excited everyone was, it seemed to take bloody ages though. I liked watching the crew do their stuff, they were all wearing matching green ES polo shirts ;D they seemed to have a great laugh, enjoying what they were doing.

My favourite moment of ES's set, aside from Rory's antics (crowd surfing to the bar, having to stop playing Sorry You're Not a Winner like three times because he was in the crowd..etc ;D):

HIYA CHRIS ILY

He was in and out of the crowd like six times or something ;D he snapped off his ear monitor at one point, too! I loved his dancing.

For now, here's the video I took of Mothership; the others are uploading on youtube atm and obviously it'll take a while, but I'll put those up later!

Rob a Bank, Anyone?

This was taken yesterday. (Thanks to Bekka for it!) Jenni was really hungry at lunch but she couldn't be arsed to go get anything, so she stole this red pepper from Georgia (who was going to use it to make spanish omelette, btw!) and started eating it. (I had a bit. I like it raw, shut up). Anyway, eventually we ended up dressing it up in Marni's ipod hoody.. and then smashing it all over the table with a book. Mundane, but entertaining. Oh, the life of a sixth former with not a lot to do.

Today was fairly rubbish on the productivity scale, apart from the below list. I didn't achieve anything I planned to except perfecting Ignorance on my drumkit. I need to sort this ICT work! There's such a lot to do. Stressful. I do like it, but the first couple of tasks were so mind-numbingly boring that it's sapped me off all motivation. I stare blankly at my laptop screen, my brain feeling like lead. It's not good.

However, we (as in, Block One Massive, as most people so affectionately call it) had a discussion about France and money and how on earth we're going to afford it. I came up with a scheme in my planner to start earning/saving money. I realised at the way I'm going I'm going to have like, zero spending money. And there's Christmas to worry about, too.

• Set up an ebay account, and sell stuff!
• Start advertising on blog. (Sorry guys. It won't be much space. Everytime you click I get money?)
• Start putting £10 of my weekly earnings aside.
• Get savings off Grandma.
• Less sandwich shop trips.
• Stop looking at the topman website. Just stop. Stop buying clothes. (C/O Helen!)
• Sort out my EMA. (£10 a week is £10 a week, right? It adds up).
• £100 EMA Christmas bonus. Keep it.
• Put aside some Christmas money.
• Take on some extra hours at work, when I can.
• Cut down on nights out! They're expensive and I only get a headache the next day.
• Top up mobile phone less. Twitter is not essential at school.

I did my maths (however bad I am at it) and estimated where all of this would get me. Hopefully I'm covered for paying for the trip and spending money :) Good times. Now for the discipline to actually carry this all out.
 
On my way home from school I walked past a woman who was taking her small children home. I recognised the uniform (Richardson Dees Primary, oh yes). I was just walking quietly along when I heard her say "aye well you're thick as pig shite aren't you, you stupid little cunt," at her frankly adorable little boy. He had blonde hair and huge, chocolate brown eyes, and one of those little mischevious grins. I was struck by how cute he was, but obviously more by how his mother spoke to him; he couldn't have been more than four. How much self belief is he going to have in later life? How much self-worth? He'll be swearing like a trooper no problem soon, if he doesn't already. I know I don't know these people and I doubt I ever will.. but really? It kind of scares me. He'll have to grow up someday. With that sort of childhood probably not to be a nice person, either. It's saddening. I'd like to think the people that'll be in my shoes in ten, fifteen years time are going to be respectful, honest, broad-minded kids, that want to change the world, even a little bit. I know I do.

Then again, the world is never going to be perfect, either.

Wow, went all philosophical on you guys there! Have an epic Paramore image:

Go Jerm! (Yes, Jerm. HAYLUD AND JERM). I love that shirt.

Signing off. xo.

LMAOWUT

LMFAO WUT I DON'T EVEN.

ALSO

LMFAOIMEANWHAT

Okay So.

I did say I was going to post about today with pictures and stuff, but life got in the way and made this plan fail. However, I will post tomorrow because the booklet we got in English Lang was hilarious. Bekka will appreciate this.

I have a lot of ICT to do this week. It's kind of annoying because how indepth can you really go talking about logos and letterheads and "the impact it has on customers"? I'm just looking forward to actually designing my own. I like doing stuff like that. I don't mind my English work so much though. I enjoy that subject an insane amount, I'm so happy to be studying it again. My mam wants me to post up the Charlie Brooker (if you don't know who he is, he writes a very funny, wonderfully sarcastic, indulgently cynical article in The Guardian newspaper once a week. He also wrote Dead Set. Y'know, Big Brother with the zombies and the blood and the smashing in of heads with fire extinguishers ♥) style article I wrote, she thinks it's great. I don't know. Maybe I will, maybe I won't. I'll see what Shakers (Mr. Richardson, what a legend!) says about it on Thursday.

Tomorrow night I'm helping out at Burnside. It's the open evening for the Year Six kids where they get to come and run around and see how amazing (read: decidedly average) the place is. It should be fun, there's a bunch of other sixth formers helping out, guaranteed giggles. :)

I would also just like to point out that I had a bloody fantastic weekend!

Saturday + Krash + Lots of people + Unexpected companions = wonderfully affectionate drunken contentedness.

Anyway, over the next hour or so I am going to:

1. Do the dishes.
2. Shower.
3. Tidy up my room (just a tad, because it's pretty tidy already minus the clothes on the floor)
4. Change my bed
5. Listen to Paramore whilst doing all of the above
6. Sleep. I'm really tired today!

I bid thee goodnight!

Skins 4 Footage! (SPOILERS, CLEARLY).

OMG. It all looks so pretty and teenage dramaish and I love that song. NAOMILY CUTE SQUEE! :) I love them. Naomi got even more attractive. I'm not sure if this is a good thing.. phwoar.

Cook dancing with Emily was all at once endearing and worrying - he looks pleased with himself. DOES NOT WANT NAOMILY ANGST PLZ. If he interferes with them he will wreck all this fondness I have for him. I thought he was a prick (well, he is, really) but he's lovely underneath it all! DO NOT WRECK.

Freddie hasn't changed his crap facial expressions, I see. And Effy was actually smiling whilst actually looking completely sober. WTFISTHATALLABOUTPLZ?!

And I'm worried about Thomas. What was all that about with the carrying of children and emo staring? :( He and Panda look distant, too.

I'm too excited, I want it to air right now, please.

I'm also going to post later, about today, because some of it was funny.

Formspring, Other Stuff

Yes, just the one ;)

Hmm, there's been a few things. On my 18th birthday this year I got my drumkit, which I adore and play constantly. Also, Christmas '07 Carl got me Adam Ant's autobiography. It's so well-thumbed the pages are falling out. I took it to Zante last summer with me and they all blew out in the wind! I got them back though :D

In other news, I'm really excited because I get to go on holiday in April with my favourite person in the world. I just thought I'd get that down here because I needed to before I combust. Today has been rubbish and boring but now I'm all happy and grinning like a twat.

During a discussion in the study room today I got the idea of doing a videoblog. I know a few people who do one occasionally and it looks like fun! Actually.. give me a topic to talk about, leave it in the comments, or formspring it, or tell me to my face!

x

Just a Note.

I googled "fecund". Seeing as it's not a word used regularly in every day language, I had no idea what it means...

YOUBEINGFUCKIN'SRS?!

Such a charmer. Oh fucking no. I mean, really. The fact you think I look like someone who is going to burst forth with a million offspring is supposed to be a compliment?! Excuse me while I swoon into your creepy goff (male) arms.

I did notice, though, this bit:

intellectually productive; "a prolific writer"; "a fecund imagination" - That's much better. Kudos to the creepy stalker. It better have been in this fucking context. CREEPY STALKER bastard.

The more I think about this, the more I think it's some sort of pisstake.

I'm hoping that, anyway.

:| What the fuck.

I am so freaked out right now.

Erm.

Well.

It's been around 24 hrs and I've had ONE formspring response. You're all a bit rubbish, aren't you?! Don't be shy! I like answering questions, it's fun.

Awww, that's sweet though, isn't it? ^_^ I don't know why you love me so much. Not a clue. Maybe I'm just ...nice. How boring. I wouldn't love me, you must be a bit mad. I'm messy and irritating ;) You're simply insane. (For anyone wondering, I do have a fairly certain idea of who this is, don't worry. Your ipod gave you away XD)

But yes, I want more, ask me anything you like!

EDIT: I've had two more submissions; a marriage proposal from someone using their BlackBerry (sorry but it's a no! I bet it was Charli, silly bitch) and this:

You people are so original! *shakes head* If you're REALLY curious, go try it, figure it out for yourself. ;) Or well, if you're male.. watch some porn. Jeez. THANKS EVE!

Ask/tell me anything.

Over on tumblr, these formspring things are very popular (and fun to do!) so I figured I'd stick one on here.

You don't have to tell me who you are (but it'd be nice if you did!) and you can ask or tell me anything you wish :) I'll repost with my responses in this very blog. Go here to do it, and there is a link in the sidebar, too.

Happy interrogating!

Pointless Rant Post

AHHHHHH. AHHHHHH! WANTED TO DO THIS ALL FREAKIN' DAY. CLICKY CLICKY, MAKE IT BIGGER.

I'm in love with it. I also just watched the half an hour long E4 music special thingy (thank you Yasmin for the heads up!) and now my Mam appreciates them because she actually took the time out to listen to more than Misery Business. I love Jeremy taking pictures of his "poops". I love Zac just sitting there. I love Hayley's shoes and the way she sounds when she's a bit hoarse (sexy as hell, ahem). Oh lordy. I love Taylor's red beanie and his foot tapping on the roof. I love Josh's new almost baldness even though it's a bit odd.

My favourite tracks so far:
Careful
Playing God
Turn It Off
Misguided Ghosts

STOKED.

My Day Has Been Made

I JUST WROTE THIS WHOLE GODDAMNED AMAZING BIGASS BLOG ABOUT ME ACTUALLY OPENING BRAND NEW EYES IN REAL TIME, AND IT FREAKIN' CRASHED.

IN SHORT, I ALMOST ATTACKED MY POSTMAN, AND IT'S THE MOST BEAUTIFUL BAND RELATED THING I HAVE EVER SEEN.


Hayley's journal. GAHHH. The cute little photos, OMG. The 7" vinyl is so pretty and retro it makes me want to die and the poster is amazing. I can't wait to watch the DVD. OMG. I'm at work today and I don't even CARE. I'm going to be grinning like a twat for at least a month. This is the best thing I ever spent my money on.

EDIT: can I just mention, the journal is the best fucking thing in it by far. It's funny, insightful.. her general scribble and thoughts are just beautiful, it's lovely to see where these lyrics actually came from (and her pictures are adorable). Also, I love her handwriting.

"IGNORANCE" ((is piss))

LMFAO. HOLY FUCKK

You Can See It With Your Eyes;

When I was younger I saw my daddy
Cry and curse at the wind.
He broke his own heart and
I watched as he tried to re-assemble it.
And my mamma swore she would
Never let herself forget.
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist
But darling

You are the only exception

Maybe I know somewhere deep in
My soul that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone or keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I swore to myself
That I'm content with loneliness
'Cause none of it was ever worth the risk.

You are the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of what's infront of me here
I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

You are the only exception
And I'm on my way to believing

The more people who see this, the better.

Okay, so yes, I have ordered tickets for the Manchester date in December to see Paramore in concert. Which begs the question, why are you bothering, Tash? You get to see them either way.

Shh. Whatever. I want anyone in Newcastle who wants to see them as much as I do, as much as my friends who can't travel out of the city do, to be able to see them in December. They're all gutted. I don't like that fact very much. Paramore don't come here often. It'll be years before they come back and if you aren't a fan you probably don't give a shit; you wouldn't understand. You're sitting there saying "You dedicated a whole blog to this?! What is wrong with you?!" But I bet you know how it feels to miss a favourite band.

http://www.ipetitions.com/petition/paramorenewcastle/index.html Just do it. It takes 30 seconds at the most.

I don't want this to end. Not yet. Just a few more weeks?

=/

I heard this wayyy back, but I just found this. It's even more epic with the live versions... I absolutely love it. I wish they'd play this together for real! It'd be amazing.

Tonight has been.. lovely. Brief as it was. Mmm.

Y'know, whatever happens, I'm actually excited now.

:)

THIS.And on that note, goodnight!
(I am listening to Alive With the Glory of Love by Say Anything. Fucking shuffle).

What's the Scores George Dawes?!

I love him.

His voice is beautiful. His band.. their music. It is quite literally perfect for me. It speaks to me in a way I completely understand and relate to. It's just so.. me. Wow, I need help.

Now I've got that off my chest, I'm currently getting myself ready for the pub quiz at the good old Dog and Parrot later on. I'm excited; it's always a laugh. It should take my mind off the fact that what I'm doing with my life over the next academic year is decided tomorrow morning and I miss someone like I'd miss a limb.

Lining my stomach - I'm going to miss mam's food when she's away, haha! Mmm. Spanish omelette makes my life.

Better do my makeup!

xo

Let Me See You Make Decisions..

That when I blog, I'm going to give it a song, as a soundtrack, sort of, in the labels bit just below. Not what I'm listening to at the time, but what I deem relevant to my post, or how I feel at the time.

When I blog about the roadtrip, it'll have several! :) I won't be able to listen to some songs now without thinking about narrow country lanes, warm sun and too much laughter. Ahh, lovely.

I'm going to bed.
Baby, I dream about you all the time.

Wake Me Up Before You Go, Go

'Cause I'm not planning on packing rolos!

Oh, today has been the best day. I want to do a really epic, detailed blog with pictures and quotes, but it's late and I'm tired and ..distracted (;P), and I fear I won't do it justice. So tomorrow, before work, I will do it properly. For now..

...I am so content with things right now. Like, really. I've never felt more at peace with the world. I'm going to make the most of this before reality (read: education) smashes it all into pieces.

Talk about that one summer that changes you forever.

As Long As I Remember Who's Wearing The Trousers

I love this band, so, so much. The tone, the mood, ESPECIALLY the lyrics, the general genius. I can't believe I'm going to see them in December. Oh. My. God. Dave Gahan's voice is beautiful. I remember being utterly mesmerised when I first nicked the Greatest Hits DVD. The videos are so.. 80's. And pretty and sombre and.. I just love it!


Wow dude, nice hair ;) I totally love how you could get away with that then.

Last night was really nice. I had a good night. To spend it with some people I hadn't seen for proper ages, to catch up and remember the old times, was lovely.

Yeah, that's all. Haha, I'm hungover and tired!

xo.

Lmao, I really think these briefly sum me up as a person. I felt the need to post that!

And I can't sleep.

Probably my fave scene.

Emily: I didn’t take MDMA that night. I just… wanted to kiss you. I want to kiss you now.
Naomi: You’re gay?
Emily: No! No, I just… sorry.
Naomi: Yeah, me too.
Emily: Shit. shit.

50 Things, You May Not Know!

I stole this off Brandon's blog, he's a really talented musician I discovered through myspace years ago, in 2005 or something. Goes by the name of Abandoned Interstate. He wrote most of the stuff on his page in the 8th grade! He's now sixteen years old, signed to an indie label, and I think he's genius.

Anyway, it occured to me recently that through the magic of lijit - yep, that little box over there! - that I have readers I've never met. People that aren't my friends, whom like to read this and see if they're mentioned and laugh at my interpretations of our lives. (Thanks for that, by the way guys). These anonymous people - they keep coming back. People in London, Sheffield, Manchester, Glasgow.. Australia, America, France! And in the same town, time after time! So, I figured. They must be interested, or something. Let's tell them some more crap about me, that my crazy friends would already know.

1. I'd hit Madam Hooch (Harry Potter, fools!) so hard. Yum. ESPECIALLY in the movie.
2. I am a bit of a computer nerd. And I like gaming. A lot.
3. I started teaching myself drums aged eleven.
4. I love watching those police shows, when they chase idiotic drivers for miles and they end up crashing or running away.
5. Thursday night is visiting Grandma night. Since like, forever.
6. I live in a flat.
7. I like nothing more than going for aimless walks with my friends, talking about nothing in particular.
8. I actually practically live for summer.
9. I'm so addicted to Bejeweled, it's beyond amusement.
10. I'm secretly sad that everyone, including myself, got sick of Myspace.
11. A lot of my friends think I'm really old fashioned when it comes to relationships. Hey, maybe I am!
12. I love cooking. Sometimes I just cook because it makes me feel better when I'm not even hungry. Then someone else eats it and says it's nice! :D
13. I still haven't told my extended family I'm homosexual. And it bothers me how scared I am.
14. I love intelligent conversations about politics and world issues and stuff!
15. The current "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" crap in the american military and the Prop 8 shit makes me really upset.
16. I think GayGod is AWESOME. Except when he dances.
17. I write songs constantly. I have like fifteen full notebooks or something. I also wrote a musical.
18. I'm starting to worry at my lack of motivation when it comes to education. I just want to travel and stalk bands and act. =/
19. For some reason being eighteen feels REALLY different to like.. well, being seventeen.
20. The TV series True Blood squicks the shit out of me. And I love vampires and shit!
21. I'm probably one of the most affectionate people you will ever meet.
22. I realised recently it's an unconcious effort of mine to see the best in everyone, even if they treat me like shit.
23. Girls, really, REALLY confuse me. And this bothers me, as I'm one myself.
24. I cut my hair short aged fourteen. To this day I don't know why I didn't do it earlier. Before then it went down to my waist. It was annoying.
25. I often get tears in my eyes whenever I talk with a friend about how much we love Paramore, or start reminiscing about the gig. This freaks me out.
26. I'd probably actually go insane if I couldn't write and scribble and stuff. Same goes with reading.
27. My first ever real concert was Steps. ;)
28. I started crying and had to sit down when we found out in the sixth form study room via wikipedia that Blink 182 were reforming.
29. Similarly, me and my best friend Charli were inconsolable when it seemed likely Travis Barker was going to die.
30. I took the day off from my part time job today because I'm sick.
31. 21 Guns is one of the worst songs I've ever heard. And I love Green Day.
32. I'm seriously, really badly obsessed with the punk movement in the late 1970's and the 1980's in general. Especially the New Romantic movement.
33. Adam Ant is an absolutely HUGE hero of mine.
34. I lurk on LJ communities. Like skins_fans, naomi_x_emily, torch_wood, etc. Reading fic and stealing icons and such to use on msn.
35. Torchwood WAS one of my favourite shows. RTF wrecked it. (Go back a few blogs to see my rage-fuelled recaps of the atrocity that was Children of Earth).
36. As much as I love Joss Whedon, I still can't quite forgive him for killing off Tara McClay. (BtVS).
37. I LOVE lolcats.
38. My last fm is primarily full of 80's bands. And I can't word how much I love Duran Duran.
39. I say "idk" out loud. =/
40. I'd seriously marry Hermione Granger.
41. I really, really, want a cat.
42. I practically have a comedy partner in the form of Tatti. (Her blog is in the links!)
43. Some of the best days of my life have been spent on a beach with a bbq.
44. I love kissing. Like, really. I fucking love it.
45. I'm so loud.
46. I can sit and watch Only Fools and Horses for literally, days. And kill myself laughing at it all the while.
47. I'd love to have Naomi Campbell of Skins as a girlfriend, and JJ as my best mate.
48. I consider recieving a Starbucks mug, and their caramel syrup for my 18th birthday, one of the most awesome things EVER.
49. I wish I had a twin brother.
50. I found this quite difficult!

Tash became a fan of Union Rooms Comment | Like

Wow, I got home later last night (well.. 1am this morning) than expected! We were all quite drunk.. and I got a McDonalds for 1.99 due to my bus ticket voucher! Good times. Last metro and too much photo taking. Yaaaay.

Work tonight was crap, and boring.. and eurgh. On the plus side, the shelves are nice and full and the prices are gradually falling.I'll have a job at the end of this year yet!

God, I feel so tired. Maybe these late nights and sleeping on floors are catching up a bit.. hee. I'll get a good nights sleep soon enough, I'm sure!

Tomorrow apparently I'm going to the Powder Monkey for some scran with Lou, Eve, Tats etc. Quite excited, I like going for meals with pals!

Things You Probably Shouldn't Do In a Pub:

• Discuss at full volume with eachother how generally horny you are
• Laugh about that woman who was found dead, tied to her bed with her nipples bitten off, that Charli saw on a Real Life CSI thing
• Laugh louder at the revelation her nipples were left on her bedside table
• Announce that the guy sitting across the room that Charli thinks is a bit dishy, has a "receding fucking hairline man!"
• Wonder aloud if that woman's nipples could have been sewn back on had she lived..
• Suggest walking home at ridiculous am along the coast road
• Complain at not being drunk enough yet
• Shout how beautiful your coke and cherry sourz is, whilst mixing it properly with your keyring because the cute huggable barman is shit
• Realise when the night is practically over that Mondays mean extremely cheap pints of Carling and run off to get one (and one for everyone else)
• Thinking you've lost your precious big mac voucher bus ticket and start squealing in the toilets

Ahh, fun times were had. Roll on next Monday, I think I'll order some food, too..

Laters! xo

We Like Pubs

Last minute decision to go the pub yesterday, good times! The amount of one-liners and crap we posted on twitter and facebook..

Tash: "I, hate, you so much right now ... fucking Veronicas, no man, KELIS! ....AHHHHHHH"

Charlotte Milne Cider and black @ union rooms = flat

Tash: "I hate her voice, I hate her face and she pisses a-self!" on Fergie of the Black Eyed Peas

@Trash__: THIS TIME BAYBEEE I'L BEEEEE BULLITPROOOOF

Tash Elliott Does not approve of hysterical vomiting women in toilets

@Trash__: "I thought ny and la were next to eachother... eee the books are real!" - @charlimilne

Charlotte Milne Bus homme, verrrrr drunk. Too much flat cider!

@charlimilne "My mouth feels like like a sheeps arse" "yeah, mine feels like a parrots shit in it" "dude." "dude."

Tash Elliott enjoys peeling herself off floorboard whilst hungover! Mmm

Charlotte Milne Me and tash have come to the conclusion that miley cyrus is infact, bald.

@Trash__: Breakfast! http://mypict.me/h0gD

Tash Elliott "It's scratching my cleavage but I can't find it," said Charli of her lost rainbow drop.

Haha, oh my life. I love it. We're going again tonight..

:D

Pixelated Word Vomit

Every kiss that I ghost across your skin, is my reassurance that I'll help you, and that I am here. Because I can't find the words.

Had to get that down somewhere. It just, arranged itself in my head. I hate feeling fucking useless. Hello thinky Tash. Where's my notepad gone.. scribbly face.

In other news, just about half an hour ago I got my debit card out and made sure a copy of the deluxe edition of Brand New Eyes will be coming my way in September. £37.74, including postage and VAT. Money well spent, I am too excited.

Charlotte Milne's tumblr makes me happy. So, happy.

Today was nice, I bought clothes, had lunch with Debbie and Chloe of the Honeywood clan, caught up. We had a discussion..

I need to tell the rest of my family I'm gay.

So, I'm Eighteen!

My day, in a nutshell:

SNEAKY, OOH. STARBUCKS, OOH! She'll stab me for putting this up.

Mmm. Not. Dog and Parrot, waiting for the others!

KRASH KRASH YAYYY.

Erm. So yeah. I had a really nice day and an awesome night out, everyone was mortal. The music was extra good! I am proud of you all for going as crazy to Misery Business as you did. (Especially Charli! :D) Well.. except Min and Eve! Thank you to those who bought me drinks! HOTN's card made my day :P So did Wor Suze's! Caitlin and Jess's presents clearly owned everything else (well.. the drumkit won, but only just!) I don't really have a lot to say, as I don't remember a lot of it, but thanks to everyone who came out with me that day, you made my eighteenth amazing! I had such a laugh.

xo.

PS. ETF IN DECEMBER. FUCK YEAH!

49 Minutes

Until I'm eighteen. Dude, I want my drumkit!

I haven't been in the house very long. Just got back from my birthday meal, which was lovely! Legend family.
That's all for now. :D

xo!

Holding Hands While the Walls Come Tumbling Down;

When they do I'll be right behind you.
I don't feel like it's summer yet. I really should, seeing as my birthday is like, the day after tomorrow and it's usually officially summer in my head then. Being off school and such. I got drunk and ate pizza and laughed in a tent on top of a hill last night. I don't understand. Perhaps if the weather was a bit more sunny! Goddamnit.

Oh god, as I type, there is a moth fluttering around my screen. I'm on webcam to Jess, she's probably laughing her head off at my facial expression of utter terror. I HATE moths. There was one in my bedroom one night in the cottage in France, and it kept burning itself on the lamp I was using to read (Harry Potter, of course!) before I went to sleep. I swear to this day there were bits of moth falling onto my bedside table. Anyway, I couldn't concentrate on my book, nor sleep, until I was sure the thing was dead. Bearing in mind, Ashleigh, my cousin, who then would have been ten years old, was sleeping peacefully in a bed just across the room. My Uncle Dave rescued me and killed it. I had just turned fifteen. *Headdesk*

Tomorrow night I'm going out with a meal with family for my birthday. My rents, all the grandparents, my auntie and uncle, and my cousin Paul. (Ashleigh would be coming but she's thirteen and invited some friends party. To be fair I can sympathize; aged thirteen would you want to go and have a meal with fam and watch them get slowly more drunk whilst eating italians and cracking jokes you don't quite understand, or go see friends and watch movies?) I'm looking forward to it, actually, it'll be nice to be all together for once!

I don't feel particularly good. Headache, shattered, and feeling a bit shaky. Maybe I should just go to bed.

Felt like updating, just a little bit.

Night, internetz. xo.

I really want to see this!

I've loved Ellen Page ever since Juno. Mmm, want one.

Guess You Better Go Get'cha Armour.

I'm finding this really odd; I can't switch this song off. I guess I try to be open minded about most things in my life, including music. Anything I can sing along to, gets my foot tapping.. but, I'm just not an R&B person! I never have been!


The video itself is unbearably shit like most these days (take a leaf out of Duran Duran's book, for goodness sake). I'm just shocked at how much I like the song! The lyrics are amazing.

Today I have done sod all. I got up ridiculously late, ate my Sunday lunch, and sat on here. Thoroughly looking forward to not having to get up for sixth in the morning. Summer is here! And I'm eighteen this coming Saturday.

I wish the 25th of August would hurry up, though. :)

I'm a soppy twat, yes.

This might just be one of the most inspirational, honest, and beautiful things I've ever read. It's not full of cliches. It's blunt, that's so nice to see. Something like this that's like, straight to the point, not all flowers and butterflies and "thou art perfection, my love". Some people are really skeptical about things like this; they say that it makes you weak, or you're setting yourself up to be hurt. Be careful, etc. I don't believe either of those things... isn't it all about taking risks? You're giving someone else the power to break you, completely. But you trust them not to, it's the whole point.

Okay, so I can occasionally be sickeningly romantic. Someone obviously neglected to tell me I should've become ashamed of it.

Don't ask me if I can relate to this. You know the answer.

06:51. Really. Ya rly.

Yes, I am up at this ungodly hour on a saturday. I do have work at nine, but considering I didn't get home til one am or something and was slightly intoxicated, you'd think I'd have stayed in bed longer. However, my head's doing that weird hurty thing when everything moves and my arms ache (how plz, I didn't do anything remotely energetic). I'm also starving. So I got up.

Yep, that's me right now. Ouch.
It amuses me that there is one, singular, other person online on facebook at the moment, and I am the only person alive on my msn contacts list. Last night was a bit mad, totally spontaeneous outing. We did plan to just go to the pub.. then we ended up getting the bus to town, to Eclipse. Carl bought me more drinks than he should've (including a tequila shot!) and we bumped into some nice people, and it turned into a drunken night out. I got told by Amy that I actually AM Shane from The L Word (I am not a slag!), but Katy said I look nothing like her, and Lauren (from myspace wew) said I do sort of resemble her but I'm better looking. ;D

There are photos on my phone, but they are blurry, unflattering and have got pretty swirly lights all over them. I do feel a bit worse for wear, but hopefully a shower, decent brekkie and 35p energy drink will sort that. Oh, and I have something nice to take to work for lunch today, pasta. Mmm. Carby carbs, it's all good. Oh god, I wonder who my shift is with today. (For those of you who don't know, I had a swine flu scare last week because Maureen whom I usually work with, has got it, and is in hospital etc. So there was panic incase I had caught it during the seven hours I work with her a week. Obviously I haven't, because I'm here, typing away).

If you haven't guessed by now I pretty much just got up and fancied doing a blog about nothing in particular. I'm eighteen in a week. It's a bit mad. I'm looking forward to my day off work, celebrations and drumkit, hee.

For some strange reason, it smells like the cottage in France. That's extremely odd, I'm half expecting to go in the kitchen and find my auntie making coffee and toast with Paul going off it cause we ran out of Nesquik. Awh, I can't find a picture of the place!

Oh my life, Amy and Katy have just got in.

I'm going to enjoy my cuppa, xo!

Lessonless Day: Mrs Beeton, Drums, Sixth Form Meals & Old Photos

I was incredibly bored in the study room after sports day yesterday, so for a little while I hijacked Amie's work. (Click the picture to read it properly). She seemed to appreciate this, and printed off a copy for herself, on which I scrawled the URL for this very blog at her request. I seem to be gaining readers by the day. All I do is talk crap.. still, not complaining!

Today, thanks to the legend that is Poolatron (digital Pooley, Poolatron is the champion) I am off! I have no lessons and she recognised that, because of this, it is pointless me attending today. I am going to have a shower and eat something very soon, before I go and choose my 18th birthday present with my parents. Those of you who know me well will already be aware that I am overcome with excitement about this. However, all going well... on Saturday, the 25th of July 2009, the following sexy piece of equipment shall be ALL MINE:

MMM, HELLO GORGEOUS

Or, at least something very similar to that. I am aware that Windows does stock such sexy pieces of equipment. Already set up, ready to have all hell set loose on them be tested. I'm too excited. Far, far too excited.

ALSO. I know everyone is wondering what the hell the crack is with my birthday, and what we're doing. I shall make a facebook group to keep you all informed. It's easiest that way.

Later, it's the sixth form meal night out thing, at Mamma Mia's! I am meeting Tats at wallsend metro for 6.15. Stewie is paying for all of our food (bless him!) which is lucky as at this exact moment in time I have £1.54 to my name "Maaam, lend us a fiver..I'll pay you back on Saturday.." I have no idea what to wear. Suggestions/informing me on what you are planning to wear would be helpful.

My mam was going through the drawer we keep all the paperwork and crap in yesterday, and found some old photographs for my first school days! I thought I'd show you guys. (Sorry Damon, if you happen to see this, by the way!)

Teaching me how to rollerblade! This is in his backyard, I think we're about six or seven here. I clearly remember those rollerblades, they were black and bright blue, with sonic the hedgehog on them if I'm not mistaken. That helmet is way too big for me! Ah, good times.

I also found this one, taken at Powerburn in yr 4! Don't even bother asking about my facial expression. That's Mrs Jones and Mrs Rea in the background, they were amazing people. I still see Mrs Jones occasionally! There's Damon looking tiny beside me in his lilac cap, and on the other side is Steven Sinclair (I was very close with him then). The dark haired boy behind me is Karl Greenwood, the blonde boy is Michael I'veforgottenhissurname, and beside him is Leanne Amis. Oh, this was a brilliant school trip, we were only away for five days and I didn't want to come home! We had campfires and an adventure playground and the most amazingly high tree swing I'd ever seen. The hot chocolate before bed was brilliant, too ;D

I was in the red group (we all had coloured caps with the Richardson Dees logo and "Powerburn 2000" on the front) with Steven, Michael, and.. I can't remember for the life of me who else. I think we were with Louise, too. Anyway, we got to travel to places in this guy's car (he wasn't a teacher, he worked at the place we were staying). He used to fly down narrow country lanes with the windows wide open, blasting Supergrass! An eight year old Tash enjoyed these car rides immensely, because Supergrass were (are) amazing.

Ooh, I enjoyed that pointless ramble. I'm off to get clean and eat! Summer is coming.. :)

Torchwood: Children of Earth - Day Five (SPOILERS)

This didn't happen. This is not canon. DENIAL DENIAL DENIAL. In my head, Torchwood got cancelled at the end of series two. Gwen, Jack and Ianto are still happily alive, protecting the earth, and mourning Owen and Toshiko. We just don't get to watch them.

BAD DREAM, BAD DREAM

You cut me deep, Russell. You cut me real deep. I refuse to get this attached to a TV show, or a character, again. You have destroyed everything Jack ever stood for, and torn him apart as a person, a character. He's not my Jack and I hate you. I hate him for what you've turned him into.

If you're planning on a series 4, I'm not watching. And there are millions of others that will do the same. Just because you're leaving to go to fucking Hollywood (what the fuck, by the way) doesn't mean you had to destroy everything, blow up the Hub, kill people off. Make it impossible for Torchwood Three to continue operating as before. You are idiotic for killing off Ianto Jones, simply insane.

Thanks for wrecking my favourite TV show, you inconsiderate, ungrateful, childish man.

Torchwood: Children of Earth - Day Four (SPOILERS)

WHAT ARE YOU DOING

THIS EPISODE DOESN'T EVEN DESERVE A BLOG

I AM HYSTERICAL

SO IS MY MOTHER

YOU COMPLETE BASTARDS

AFTER OWEN AND TOSH

THEN IANTO

HOW MANY VIEWERS ARE YOU GOING TO LOSE

HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO JACK AND GWEN?!

...

I HATE YOU

However, the fact Jack was blackmailed into handing over those kids made me feel better.

Torchwood: Children of Earth - Day Three (SPOILERS)

I'll just go right ahead and speak everyone's minds: WHAT THE HELL JACK?! WHY DID YOU HAND OVER THOSE KIDS IN 1965?! I'm assuming, here, that this is of course after Jack has travelled with the Doctor and Rose, when he's waiting for him to turn up in Cardiff, working for Torchwood Three in the meantime. I'm baffled as to why he did it; my first reaction was "Oh god, poor Jack, he must have been ordered to do it!" But, after pondering this, I came to the conclusion that Jack has been the head of Torchwood Three for some time, because he can obviously live forever. His teammates are either going to be killed in action or die of old age at some point. He has to keep recruiting a new team. So, was it his decision to hand over the twelve children, to make the 456 go away and leave the earth alone? This seems so unlike PostDoctor!Jack. Wouldn't he have looked for an alternative solution?! I'm disappointed in him and I don't want to be. I adore Jack! Did he have a choice?

Also, WHY are the Americans having a fit at Britain. It's not our fault that the 456 decided to land here. Granted, it's because of their visit in 1965 (they've obviously just came back for more children expecting to be given them) but we didn't ask them to visit then, either! The PM is a bastard, though. Why did the British government have to cover 1965 up?! Trying to kill Torchwood Three and not letting UNIT help.. they're so stupid.

Jack & Ianto: We have sex everywhere ever, whenever

YAY for the return of Jack/Ianto filthy togetherness chatty snark. I loved Jack sending Rhys to the shops for discs - "I've missed that coat", "The beans aren't ready yet" - WIN! And bless Ianto asking Jack if getting blown up hurt! I'm glad they had their chat, though. Making the most of their time together, awww! I did NOT approve of Clem shouting queer at Ianto though!

I am disappointed at how cliched this bloody alien is. Looks like it's got several limbs, scaly skin and it spits yellow goo everywhere. Not very original is it?! Come on, you've done better than that before! Space whale, for example, that was pretty awesome. If extremely sad.

I'm generally just curious as to where they take this now; there's no way in hell anyone is going to stand for giving away 10% of the earth's children. But the ending is bound to be epic and explosive and blah blah. Bring ittttt!

Torchwood: Children of Earth - Day Two (SPOILERS)

HOLY SHIT. The hub has been blasted into smithereens. I know everyone is like OMGWTFJACKISINPIECES!!! But.. hello. This also means that Myfanwy is probably dead, god knows what has happened to Janet.. and was the morgue affected? Frozen!Gray, for one thing, along with Tosh's body (I think..?) and all other deceased Torchwood agents, and whatever other bloody things are kept down there. I'm pretty gutted to be honest, I loved Myfanwy and Janet.

Gwen Cooper: sexy whilst being blasted into the air

Anyway. Jack. FUCKING, JACK. I am sick of this. He has been through enough, the poor sod. He was tortured and repeatedly killed and forced to watch the torture and killing of Owen, Gwen, Ianto and Tosh by the lovely Mr Saxon for a whole year on the Valiant, buried alive for 200 years by his brother Gray, thrown off an extremely high building, shot god knows how many times, abandoned by the Doctor and Rose on the gamestation, and countless other fucking things. Then they decide to plant a bomb in his stomach and blast him into bits, only for him to wake up screaming, only partially healed and so covered in serious burns. Then they fucking fill his cell with concrete; and to break the block open Ianto chucked it off a cliff! I mean, REALLY! I love you Jack, even if the writers obviously don't and keep doing this to you! Seeing him all burnt and screaming actually really hurt. I shouldn't be this attached to him, but I am. Look at his little face! Gwen and Ianto were doing their nuts; awwh. I love the team.

Also, OMGIHASACRANE!Ianto was ABSOLUTELY EPIC. I never thought we'd see him in a hard hat and builder's boots with his suit all scruffy, not giving a shit. What genius.

Gwen and Rhys had their OMGI'MPREGGERS chat. It was sweet, riding in a potato truck, bless them. I can tell Gwen is still a bit "ar, shit" about it, whilst Rhys is estatic. He's quite happy with home made lasagne, rugby on the telly, and 2.4 kids, isn't he? I adore his character; he keeps Gwen grounded, he's lovely. I particularly liked the scene in the cafe with Lois. I don't know why, but it reminded me just how sweet he can be, and how he's a bit of a loveable oaf occasionally. Brilliant casting, I like Kai Owen.

Just wants some food, poor bastard

It occured to me whilst Gwen and Rhys were going try and get Jack out of his cell how far she's actually come. What a contrast to deerinheadlights!Gwen. She's shooting people, beating the crap out of everyone, lying through her teeth, fooling everyone who stands in her way, and smirking sexily as she does so. I love it. I was concerned she'd lose a bit of her vulnerability.. but this is Gwen! She's all with the humanity. "Go home with your boyfriend, eat lasagne," Jack said, way back in series one. And she has done, she's got the balance just about right, I reckon. I love that. It will get more difficult with a baby, but I think I've changed my mind.. Gwen's fucking brilliant, she's more than capable of coping now. She's no longer the OMFGWHATAMIDOINGLET'SSLEEPWITHOWEN!Gwen we once knew.

I am loving this so far, it's so fantastically written, amazing storyline. I was a bit dubious with the five episode format and I will be sad when it ends so soon, but for now I am so excited. Can't wait for Day Three later!